Thank God for my liveliness!

I can't keep calm ! , i have so many feelings inside of me , that make me alive , i love the positive ones , like excitement , high energy , happiness ,ambitions , and they are always there :) . Calm,mature and rational girls disgust me , it's like you want to shake them into being alive , you know the ones that go "why are you upset ?" when it's a thing that needs to be upset about , or "Why do you say this about your mother / father ?" . when they are acting really annoying and you can't just accept them as they are , you know the sane . rational ones , the funny thing is they've grew up in an unhealthy enviroment with personality disordered parents and they'll be rational and calm , if i grew up in a nuthouse ofcource i'll be nuts , not a good ,rational , calm , quite , polite little girl .