Father issues ...

Most of the time i think that there is no one who can live with my dad (except my mom ) even his mother can't (who also i think that only my late grandfather can live with her) anyways , i sometimes say that its good that his first wife divorced him and took his (which are hers as well ) kids away from him,and that he deserve it , because of different reasons , like his bad temper , his personality disorder , emotional immaturity ,and the little and big annoying habbits he does (but then i feel guilty just by thiking of this ). I know he is my father , and that EVERY girl has feelngs for her father , even if the father isn't that good , and the relationship isn't that good , who said i wasn't one of those girls ?, it's just that he's one of the people who you'd only like on few occasions , it's not like he's tottaly bad ass , he was verbally abusive many times when his Temper was HUGE , among other things associated with bad temper , yet he ALWAYS gives me money even when i don''t ask him to ,he brings me food that he "thinks" i like or still like ( thinks of me ) , he drove me when i didn't drive , but he aint the "best " dad ,we barely have a relationship with him and i aint "daddy's spoiled little girl " although it may seem so.